I wish for you that you never say
"it passes the time"
in regards to anything you do

I like my job,
don't get me wrong
but lately
I've been missing so much of my life

yesterday my mom's college graduation
today her fiftieth birthday party

I'm off counting geraniums.

You Know.
I'm Going to Miss this.

We're not so good.
But I love it so much.

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I've seen how it will end.
Not quite satisfied.
Lacking that little bit of closure.
The One I require.

But There is nothing I can do.

Anxiety slipped of her skin in trembles

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No we don't eat that.
That's grub killer.

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Today I took down a flag for the first time.
How it is that I've gone this long with out that one activity under my belt?

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Fiberglass ladders weigh too much.

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I made throwing stars out of old receipts.

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My spindly arms are no good against a behemoth.

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Who would have thought that work would be the best part of my day?

Worry grew in little rows on your terraced brow.

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APs are done. Time to make my life better?
Like there wasn't time before.

I love getting older. Don't get me wrong.
But you know it's an 18th birthday party
when no one eats the cake.
We seem to have lost the beautiful part of ourselves
that doesn't care.

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We were worried about never being by ourselves.
Always knowing where someone is.
Their car parked dubiously in it's spot.
-I didn't want to know that.-
But as I spent this weekend at home alone
and all I did was listen to the same depressing song
over and over and over
I though, maybe, it wouldn't be so bad to have someone around.

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This woman is paying for batteries.
Two packs of batteries.
Behind the counter, I'm out of bags
so she stands there, after paying
looking at me
the bag?
she spits at me,
oh I'm sorry, I'm out, I'll see if I can find one for you.

you must be new.
venom
and she storms away.
jerk.

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dude. I need some endorphins.