My best day ever will be the day I lose a bet.
This may sound twisted, backwards, broken, or any number of things but "best."
But it's true, and it's true because in all of my life I've never gambled. Every decision I make comes with calculated odds. If the odds aren't in my favor, I don't play. These calculations have led me to great victories and even greater failures.
I never thought of myself as a competitive person. Perhaps this is true, or perhaps it is absolutely false and I've never allowed myself to conceive of myself as a competitive person. For example, cross country. I told myself all four years that I didn't really want to try, that I didn't care. But I recently realized that I most likely didn't try because I didn't know the odds. I didn't know whether or not I had what it takes, and I didn't want to try only to find out that I wasn't good enough.
My best day ever will be the day I lose a bet. Fall flat on my face. Fail. Because then, and only then, will I be allowed, no, forced to stand on my own two feet and prove what I am capable of. Only then will I be able to live a life free of calculations and self imposed restraints. And yes, without these restraints I will fall. Often. And then I'll stand back up and take another leap, and I'll go farther than I ever could.
Very perceptive.
I like it.